It doesn't look like the weather is improving at all but nonetheless there are cheery little signs of spring everywhere and nature coming to life, I'm really looking forward to longer, brighter days, in fact, I feel like I really need them at this stage.
My February was a mix of things, many health related!
I finally got a follow up MRI to see how the tear in my artery is healing. Being a public patient has huge disadvantages sometimes and having to wait so long for something so important was one of them. However, I had the MRI and follow up appointment at the public clinic. I'd had a cardiology appointment the previous week (this was scheduled at the time of CAD) and the scan results were actually there but the doctor wasn't able to read them - it is a bit of a specialist area but still a very frustrating experience to have the information there, literally in front of me, and no way to access it.
Anyway, I did get the results finally at the subsequent appointment and after an initial chat with one of the trainee docs I got to talk to the consultant who explained that the tear was healing well but that the way it healed had created a narrowing of my artery which means that I'm on aspirin for life. Luckily the path of the artery is completely smooth so it's not like the artery is clogged, it's just narrower than it was.
So, good news really. Although it didn't feel like it at the time, I left the clinic feeling teary and out of sorts and couldn't quite figure out why. I guess it just hit me in a big way that this was something that would affect the rest of my life. And at the same time, I was more or less signed off (with a yearly follow up scan), but still suffering a lot of symptoms that have an impact on my daily life.
I do know how blessed I am and things are improving but sometimes it's hard to deal with the fatigue and head pain and tingly scalp and on the bad days I usually go to my CAD Facebook group for chat and comfort, so thankful to have found it and the lovely people who understand the whole experience.
Another health related issue cropped up in February. My daughter Síomha unfortunately suffers from Ulcerative Colitis, an autoimmune disease which is a chronic inflammation of the large intestine. She was diagnosed in her final exam year of school and had to spend time in hospital getting it under control as her symptoms were so severe. She had a very bad flare up again recently which was really worrying as we were very afraid she would have to be hospitalised again. Luckily, our GP is great and through a combination of his care and hospital visit, she got the medication she needed and it is now hopefully under control again. Unfortunately, the immediate solution is steroids and she has been taking those for some time now - the side effects are pretty awful and not pleasant but they are working which is something, I guess.
I'm so amazed at her resilience and strength, it's such a tough thing to go through, to feel constantly ill and suffer such debilitation symptoms and still be positive. She's been channeling a lot of her emotions into her art which is incredible although I have to wonder if I'm the only mum to come home to pictures of intestines all over the living room floor! :)
This is work designed as part of her current assignment: